I am completely and utterly unhappy with myself. For anyone who is uninterested in reading something resembling a stereotypical emo rant, avert your eyes.

I've become so disillusioned with numerous things related to this site, especially some of my actions towards people. It's largely because I've become dissatisfied with my position, which I know will not change until I begin submitting things. However, that day is still some ways off. I can't bring myself to do anything artistic unless it's up to high standards and will be noticed by members of the community. Furthermore, I can't do anything unless it's up to my standards that I have set for myself. And I'm not even close to meeting those standards.

I used to idolize artists on here and on FurAffinity. However, that was the problem...I idolized them. Sure, you can have something to look up to, but...I felt like my "appreciation" of their works bordered on the fanatical. In the process, I virtually went insane. I have a nearly unavoidable tendency to act like a dick in various situations. I just can't control it. I would blame it on the online disinhibition effect (look it up on Wikipedia), but I know I can't. I'd just look like a douchebag. And I know I already look like one to numerous people.

If I was to publicly apologize for past actions, no one would believe me. Besides, they'd all be too busy doing something else. But for my sake, I know that apologizing wouldn't fix anything. I'm a person who wants immediate results. I'm impatient.

I don't know what else there is to say. To people on my friends list who have added me to their own friends list, I wish I could say I am sorry, but I know that won't change your opinion of my online persona. No one on the internet truly knows one another via textual communication. One can only understand the recipient of their comments if they've talked to each other in real-life situations. I only know a few people on here from my everyday life, so they're the only ones that I can identify with. I feel disassociated with other people, so I think my rationality escapes me often.

I'm considering leaving this account for a new one. Sure, it's a pathetic attempt to "start over," but that's one of the few options I have left. Desperation doesn't accurately describe my mood.

I would go on to describe how these occurrences affect my actual attitude, but I'm not interested in boring anyone right now. I'm unhappy, that's all I need to say to express a general range of thoughts and emotions.

I need to stay away from Deviant Art for a few weeks or months. For that matter, please avoid trying to contact me on here. If you really want or feel like saying anything to me regarding this or anything, send an email to epicpanda7@gmail.com. I will not access this site until I've managed to straighten things out.

Transformers was pretty good. It excelled over the original in almost every way, but at the end of the film, I decided that the first one was the better of the two. Why? I have two complaints about Revenge of the Fallen.
1. Enough with the fucking jokes. This seriously detracted from some of the darker tones of the movie. Right after Optimus' death, even. That was a pretty dick move, directors.
2. Mudflap and Skids were even more stereotypical than Jazz was in the first movie. Though, the voices of the two reminded me of Mission Hill, since one of them (I don't remember which) was voiced by Tom Kenny. He did a character on the aforementioned show. But still, they had huge ears and a dopey look to them. Just watch the movie, you'll see what I mean.
You know, a lot of the more popular artists have done reviews for this already, so basically, anyone who doesn't have over a million pageviews, yet decides to post a review anyway is simply wasting their time. The members of the unthinking majority are too busy fondling themselves, reading or watching something done by some guy who, like most, never responds to comments.

I fucking hate deviantART. Hey, that's my new personal quote.

I know this is extremely late, to the point where I probably shouldn't even talk about it, but I was watching some stuff on Cinemassacre the other day, specifically Angry Video Game Nerd videos. Up to that point I had never really known anything about the "conflict" between the Nerd and the Nostalgia Critic. I watched some of the videos and later went to the Critic's website. To be fair, I watched some of his reviews so as to formulate an honest opinion.

My analysis? I like his brand of humor, but not his brand of humor. Okay, can someone explain to me how this dipshit gets so much fucking traffic in a single day? Shit, scratch that, it's similar to this site's tepid gathering of fanboys, emos, and whatever else...

How do people like this? I don't get it. Provide me a detailed, thorough analysis of why the Nostalgia Critic is funny. It's just...not. He makes everything seem so uninteresting and lazy with his near-constant use of a childish demeanor and stereotypical "I sound nice but I'm really not" voice. And yet everyone just eats his shit and loves it. Go ahead and criticize me for liking the Angry Video Game Nerd. "You're a fucking idiot, all he does is swear a lot and make poop jokes." Yeah, but at least he makes it FUNNY. And FUCK YOU for criticizing my sense of humor. Yeah, I like most intelligent comedy, but there has to be a balance. Otherwise, you end up looking like a total douchebag. That's why I've lost a great deal of respect for a number of popular artists. They always pride themselves on being fans of the Critic or Mystery Science Theater 3000 (which I've had no exposure to), and this just over-inflates their already massive egos. Why, dammit? Is it not enough that you have;
A. a million pageviews?
B. scores of fans incapable of detecting intoxicating levels of narcissism?
C. artistic talent that you shamelessly parade over people trying to better themselves?

Apparently not. Holy shit. Yeah, call me a dumbass for not liking the Nostalgia Critic. What have you proven with the label? Nothing. I like stuff that makes me laugh. The Critic is so fucking childish and inane that I honestly have no respect for him.

You see, this is why I hold grudges. It's also the reason why anger festers in my mind like...fuck, I can't even think of a simile to explain myself.

I fuckin' hate deviantART.

I know most people who have used the internet have had to deal with some sort of filter restricting their website access at some point during some point in their life. I was wondering if anyone here who uses Firefox knows if there's some way to set up a filter that blocks specific websites. Like, if there's some simple option available on the browser or under network connections, something like that. Anyone? I'd really like to know, since I have something that needs to be taken care of.

EDIT!
The issue has been resolved. Figured out a way to do it myself.

On a more interesting note, I saw Year One today. It was okay. Not exactly up to the standards that other comedies have set, but a fun diversion nonetheless. Most of the jokes revolved around getting laid, with an occasional poop joke here and there. For the most part, it was alright, like I said before. I sort of wish we had gone to see Pelham 123 instead, or The Hangover, but they can wait till some other week. Movies I'm really looking forward to right now are 9 (not the musical, referred to as Nine), GI Joe, Astro Boy, Bruno, and Transformers.

showed me Prototype for the first time today. Damn, that game's awesome. Times like this make me continually realize my insatiable lust for a PS3.

A comic about the game from the one website on the internet that has never let me down. [link]

Cleared up something I've been meaning to do for a while. Don't ask. Just pay attention to the panting guy's last words at the scene's end. [link]